COLOMBIA. 2017. Lorena, 21. "I joined the group six years ago when I was fifteen, when I was a kid I was really scared of the Farc because of the Media and the Radio which was in our kitchen and my mother used to listen to it. On the radio they were always telling scary stories about the Farc, stories like how they rape young girls. One day I was sitting in my house and a Farc guerrilla was passing our house and he saw how scared I was because of him. He came close to me and asked: Are you scared of me? I answered: Yes! Because I heard horrible things about the Farc on the radio. The guy answered 'enemies won't talk good about each other,' and he left. He really touched me with his answer and the second time I saw him I asked him to take me with him. When I started to get to know their ideology I fell in love with the idea of equality. On my first year I was really scared of man to man combat but after years they sent me to battle. When I shot the first bullet all my fear itself left me like a bullet, since then I never scared of fighting anymore. In the past year I became a member of the special forces. I remember the time that we attacked Suarez in Cauca. It was a really difficult battle. I was wondering all the time that if I die now my family will never find out what happened to me, but when I went back to our base in the jungle I remember that I felt so powerful, maybe for the first time of my life. I wanted to go back to fight right away. I was always one of the first ones who asked the commander to send me to fight. Now I'm learning how to deal with the civilians. For example I was taught that I have to be polite with people and when I want to touch their stuff and go to their houses I have to ask them first. I come from a very poor family and my parents couldn't feed us and my little sister was always hungry and we couldn't go to school. After going back to the city I will miss my gun".